Friday, December 14 & Saturday, December 15

Two days in one post...what??!! I was so busy yesterday I had no time, then when I did have time, the internet was out.

Friday's numbers are:
Burned: 2465/2500
Eaten: 1369/1500
Deficit: 1096/1000
Water: 100oz
Took day as rest day because I was feeling pukey.

Saturday...ok first I gotta explain.  Saturday was gonna be a calm day...sitting all day at the assembly. I had two choices...just take the day as a high calorie eaten and lower calorie burn or do something about it. So I set my alarm for 6am.  It went off...I turned it off and layed in bed, thinking...yeah maybe I'll just sleep an extra hour.  But then I kicked my own butt, got up and did my workout.  No, my eating choices were not the best as far as calories go...but I made SURE I worked hard to burn the calories I ate. After assembly, even though most days I would have just hung out and chilled, we had a dance party to burn those calories off.  We danced until almost midnight.  They're not perfect but I'm not ashamed of my numbers like I would normally be...
Burned: 3093/2500
Eaten: 2224/1500
Deficit: 869/1000 (I will make those up during the week...got a 7000 calorie deficit goal for the week as my BIG GOAL, in order to lose 2 pounds/week)
Water: 66oz
Workout: Fire 45 and dancing

Yes I know I'm not perfect in my eating, but I feel like I can make a decision to at least burn off the calories I eat.  That makes me feel better.  I am working everyday to make healthier choices, to not have a second serving of this or that...to have a healthy breakfast (or any breakfast), or healthy lunch or dinner, more fruit, water, etc.  Small changes are better than none.

Love to all!

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Okay...today's Friday...aka weigh-in day!!  I'm actually excited about this one! I'm at 191.7 today. That means I lost 4.4 pounds this week! WOOT!! :)  I've been working hard to keep my calories in check and make sure I meet my burn goal.  This weekend is going to be tough as we have Special Assembly Day, and we sit an hour in the car to and from, and sit all day.  I will try to walk around before and during lunch and maybe take the kids to the park after if it's not too dark once we get home.  I'll also be moving my workout to Sunday, my normal rest day.

Yesterday's numbers:
Burned: 2624/2500
Eaten: 1356/1500
Deficit: 1268/1000
Water: 100 oz
Workout: Core 20 and Stretch 40.  I'm feeling it in my abs today...yikes!!

Have a good day everyone!! :)

Wednesday, 12-12-12!!!

I wanted to do something really epic and cool for 12-12-12 but we didn't do anything really awesome. We had a dozen dinner, so that was pretty cool.

Here are yesterday's numbers:
Burned: 2763/2500
Eaten: 1810/1500 (Yes...I went overboard on our dozen dinner...but since I had extra calories from the day before I figured it would make up for it.)
Deficit: 953/1000
Water: 80oz
Workout: 1 mile walk around the track outside.  I was scheduled for Fire 30 but had such a bad headache that when I took the kids to the park I decided to walk instead. 

Gotta go get my workout in. Late, but better late than never! :)

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Hey everybody! Short post cuz I have a lot to get done...but here's yesterday's stats:

Burned: 3262/2500
Eaten: 1781/1500 (yes I went over but did you see how many calories I burned???)
Deficit: 1481/1000
Water consumed: 60 oz (gotta work on it, some days I'm just so cold I don't want to drink)
Workout: Fire 55ez

Feeling queasy today and kinda sick to my stomach, but hopefully that'll pass.  Gotta do down a ton of water and then go, go, go!

Love and hugs to all!!

Monday, December 10, 2012

Yesterday was a really great day.  I was mindful of what I was eating all day, drank my water, did my workout.  I have to keep up this lifestyle if I'm going to see results.  One day at a time. 

I read a blog lately where the woman lost over 100 pounds. She said the way she kept herself going was by asking herself "Can I do this today?"  She did this everyday and that's how she made it through. I know it's not an easy journey, as I've been on it for quite a number of years...but this time is the last time I'm going from this heavy.  I'm done with it.

Okay...here are today's numbers:
Burned: 2808/2500
Eaten: 1343/1500
Deficit: 1465/1000
Water: 100 oz

I won't share my weigh-ins until Fridays...but today was encouraging.  I know it's water but I really needed to get rid of it!!

Thanks for supporting me on my journey!!

I'm not as strong as all that...

It's been 37 days since my last post.  Those who know me know that November was not an easy month on our family.  We started at the end of October with finding out the house had BIG TIME septic problems that were way too expensive to fix.  We were told by the plumber that we needed to let it dry up under the house and it was going to cost in excess of $500 to repair.  There was mold growing on things in the closets and on some of the kids toys.  With 2 asthsmatic kids and one possibly, we didn't know what to do.  The kids and I packed up and went to Mom & Dad's house.  Mostly by Holy Spirit (I'm convinced!) our dear friend shopped at a store she wouldn't normally go to and happened to find a place for rent.  She spoke to the owners and at first, when I called them and inquired about the house, it didn't look like we would even have a chance to get it. Well, long story short...we did and we are living here now! It's a great place with room to grow (has a storage room that with permission could be turned into a 4th bedroom). It's warm, cozy, with no major problems and we LOVE it!!

So now that all the excuses are gone...it's time to refocus.  I have started another thyroid medication, Synthroid, one I've taken before and had good results with.  So far, so good. I've been taking it for about 2 weeks now, and I have energy and best of all no crazy migraines like with the other medication. YAY!! 

I bare my soul on this blog, so I am sad to say I'm starting over again at 195.4. I had surprisingly lost 2 pounds while at my parents house, but they came back and brought a couple friends.  Mind you, it's that time of the month so I could be retaining, but nevertheless, it is what it is and that's my starting point.  I'm starting my first Turbo Fire workout today and am determined to continue for the whole program.  I'm excited to see the changes that occur at that point.  Maybe by then I'll have some courage to post some pictures...at this point I'm still at the before, and so you ain't seeing nothing!! LOL

So, my goal date is August 3, 2013 according to the Bodybugg results calculator. That's eating 1400 calories per day and burning 2400, for a 1000 calorie daily deficit.  I aim to drink 100 oz of water per day and I think I'm basically going to eat the same things for breakfast and lunch everyday to keep myself consistent, then just calculate what's for dinner and plan to see exactly how much I can have in order to stay within calories. I may post my intake/output here daily like I used to, so PLEASE let me know if you don't like getting the posts (for those of you I have on direct delivery). You who get these emails, I have chosen you as my support system.  :)

Well, here we go.  I'm planning on working hard and really want to see those results. I'm tired of starting over and over and over.  But the good thing is, at least I haven't quit yet!  NEVER GIVE UP!!

Last week was kind of a blur with all the headaches.  Saturday I started seeing blue and red alternately after service.  I immediately took a Goody powder and laid down for a little while.  It did get a bit better and I went and helped a sister clean windows.  I'm feeling weak and dizzy again so I didn't do the workout I had scheduled for myself.  I took a break from the new medication Sunday and Monday...but yesterday I decided to try it again and I just felt off.  No migraine but I felt so weird and I didn't like it.  I contacted the company about getting it exchanged for something else so hopefully that will help.  It did make me SOOO very hungry yesterday I couldn't get enough food and it was not satisfying.  Today it's a little better but unpleasant. Let's just say I am NOT posting how many calories I ate yesterday.  Although I'm really hungry today I'm controlling it by drinking lots of water.

Wow this post is boring.  Sorry.  I'm really having a hard time making myself do what I know I need to do.  I have no idea why.  I have no discipline when it comes to food and exercise lately. I used to get up early and workout and that's when I had gotten down to my lowest weight (this time around) of 182.3.  I'd love to get there again. It's not that far away! Just gotta find my motivation I guess.

Friday, October 19, 2012

Day 4 of new meds.  Tuesday afternoon I got a migraine.  It was really bad.  I was cleaning and getting lots accomplished, had gotten my meeting study done, laundry, kids room cleaned, etc...and then it stopped me in my tracks.  I started seeing colors and patters and immediately took ibuprofen and tried to nap (as well as you can with kids).  When Andy got home I went to bed. I slept basically until the next day.  Wednesday it wasn't as bad to start with, I could feel residual pain when I coughed or bent over but nothing too bad.  Mid-afternoon it got a lot stronger.  I took more ibuprofen. Yesterday it was off and on.  Today it's here in the background.  It's not as strong as it was on Tuesday..that literally had me nauseated it was so painful.  I really hope it's not the new medicine causing this because I really want to start getting better!

Today I will attempt to get back on my TurboFire schedule.  I need a scheduled exercise program.  Even if I just do it very low impact, I will be burning more calories than if I did nothing at all, right? I'm quite irritated at all the health problems I seem to be having lately.  But I really think that being 66 pounds overweight doesn't help things like my back and hip pains and maybe it's causing other problems.  The body wasn't meant to carry more than it's supposed to.  So the way I see it I have got to work hard to get the extra weight off.  If the problems are still there at that point, then I can work to deal with them then. 

This week's numbers so far:
Tuesday -
Burned:2320/2400
Eaten: 1357/1400
Deficit: 963/1000

Wednesday -
Burned: 2240/2400
Eaten: 1449/1400
Deficit: 791/1000

Thursday -
Burned: 2354/2400
Eaten: 1798/1400
Deficit: 556/1000

Yes I know, I know.  For some reason Tuesday and Wednesday with the migraine and despite the nausea, I was really hungry.  Also since then every time I eat my stomach hurts.  I wish I could trade this body in for one that actually works.  Oh well...

Hope everyone has a great day and I'll try to update again soon.

Documentation

Since the last time I posted, I have gained 3 pounds.  I have lost and gained the same 3 pounds over and over again.  I haven't been watching what I've been eating and certainly haven't been logging.  Burning calories really hasn't been an issue for me lately, as I've been so busy I've been burning over my target most days.  I'm still dealing with the fatigue and dizziness but somehow I've learned to just go with it and do what has to be done.  I took my bp yesterday after not taking it for a few weeks and it's still just as low. 

Today I started on some thyroid medication and so I really want to document how I feel and keep track of it so that I'll have some kind of record of it all.  It helps me to see if it's actually helping me feel better. I'm starting at a small dose at first, the recommended starting dosage and if I'm not feeling better in 3 weeks, I'll up the dose.  I hope I can regulate it and get to feeling more like my old self.  I go to the female doctor next week and I'm going to inquire about depression drugs as well.  When I was taking them before they seemed to help.  So we'll try that.

My weight is: 191.2.  I hate that.  I thought I was out of the 190's for good.  I'm trying to regroup now...be careful and log my food.  I'm kinda tired of the struggle.  But I'm going to re-motivate and hopefully get this all off.  It would be nice to be at my goal weight by the next District Convention.  The goal is mid-June now.  Dang...I should have been there 2 years ago.  Oh well...can't cry over that now.  I have to just focus and move ahead. 

I am thinking about starting over with Turbo Fire on Friday.  I hope I can do it.  It may be super low impact but I need some type of structured exercise.  We also are going to start doing the C25K program soon...and I'm excited about that too.  The kids need some good exercise to thet those little hearts going.

I hope to update more often...I've said this before...if the posts are annoying just email me and I'll take you off the email list.  I won't be offended...so no worries!! xoxoxx

Losing weight...yay!

For some reason I am just simply forgetting to log my food everyday.  I guess because I was feeling so lousy, it was just the last thing on my mind.  After a rough weekend I do feel a little better (other than a sore throat and a sleepless night last night). I sat and did some stretching on my neck so maybe that is helping.  I know the spine controls so much of our bodies and when something is out of alignment it can mess everything up.  So maybe I can work on that and maybe the other stuff will fix itself. 

The good news is I've lost a bit more weight, I'm down to 188.3. It's slow going but I'll take it. I am on track to meet my goal for October, I only need 9 more pounds.  I'm gonna work harder at keeping track of my food intake. I've been burning over my 2150 calories per day. I am not sure of my deficit.

But progress is progress...

Slowly but Surely...

So back to the weight loss...I'm so tired of thinking about my blood pressure and energy problems.  I've added a probiotic and chloriphyll (sp?) to my regimen.  Going out today to get some broccoli, spinach and other greens.

But I've lost some weight.  I'm at 190.2 today.  I'm almost in the 180's again and I don't have any intention of going back up once I'm there.  I'm keeing my consumed calories at 1400 and have lowered my burned calories to 2150.  There are days I barely make that because of being so drained. Monday was one of those days.  I need the extra motivation of someone "looking over my shoulder" so to speak, so I've decided to log my numbers again. I don't want to give up on losing weight. 

Last week my goal was to lose 1.5 pounds but I lost 1.3. I didn't eat that well last week and overdid it some days.  Instead of setting a long-term weight loss goal that seems very overwhelming, I have decided to set many short-term goals.  So my current goal is to weight 179 pounds by October 26th. My long-term is weigh 125 by July 6, 2013.  I know it's far from my original goal of being at my goal weight by the end of this year but will I be happy if I've lost that much by then? Sure.  So I've gotta do what I can do.  Maybe once I start feeling better (I'm still hoping that will happen) then I'll up it to 2lbs per week instead of 1.5.  Hopefully I'll be able to start TurboFire again, which I really loved and had fun doing.  Something has got to work.

Yesterday's numbers are as follows:
Calories burned: 2533/2150 (lots of housework lol)
Calories consumed: 1519/1400
Deficit: 1014/750
Water consumed: 60oz

I've just got to take everything one hour at at time. Some hours I feel good and have energy and others I'm barely awake and feel like falling on the floor.  So little by little...that's all I can do.  I'm going to look and see today about self-medicating my thyroid and see if it helps.  I do only have half of one so maybe it's part of the problem.  I also have a Dr appt October 1st. Far off but that's the soonest I could get in. 

I will try to update daily.  Those of you who get this by email if you get tired of it, let me know and I'll take you off the list.

Progress...

So this blog is called Transforming Dee...about my weight loss journey.  Well now part of that has also become about figuring out what's going on with my blood pressure and trying to fix that too.  So I thought I would document a little about what I have been doing and if I'm noticing a difference. Then maybe I'll have something to show a doctor about what I've already tried.

So far this is what I'm doing:
Taking a multi-vitamin
Iron supplement
Magnesium supplement
B-Complex sublingual with added b-12
B-12 supplement
Total cereal twice a day
Drinking lots of water 80oz or more

I'd like to start walking again too now that temperatures are cooling down.  I have low-energy dips throughout the day where I just feel like I could pass out or collapse.  But I just try to rest and work through them.  The show must go on.

Taking a break

Well, after my last post I have decided I need to concentrate on figuring out this low blood pressure thing and fixing it. I'm tired of not feeling well. It's not that I'm giving up on losing weight but I can't do much of anything feeling this low. I have good days but they're becoming fewer and the bad are plentiful.

I'm going to make a Dr appointment and go from there. Once I'm losing weight again or something I'll make a weight related post. Thanks for the encouragement and everything.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Burned: 2268/2400
Consumed: 1756/1400
Deficit: 512/1000
Water consumed: 60oz

Yesterday's eating and activity were as a direct result of how I felt.  Horrible.  Today I'm gonna try and eat lighter, to compensate for the rest I'm supposed to be getting.  Now if I could only keep still.

August 14, 2012

Burned: 2547/2400
Consumed: 1326/1400
Deficit: 1221/1000
Water consumed: 80 oz

So I wrote yesterday how as of Monday I was feeling better.  Well last night was horrible, I felt horrible toward the evening and during the meeting. This morning I got up earlier than the kids (for once) and felt okay in the morning, but now this afternoon since about 2:00 my arms are tingling and weigh about 100 pounds each and I'm lightheaded, not just when I get up but all the time.  I just want to sleep. Sleep and cry.  I thought I was getting better, I thought something was working. But nothing is working and I'm so mad and irritated. I have a house to run, kids to care for and if this is the way I'm going to have to do it then it's going to be very hard.  I'm not the sit around and do nothing type of person.  When I do have to sit around, I think about all the things I need to be doing.  This is not fair! I'm not old, I don't have a disease that would give me a reason to feel this way.  Between this and my hip/back pain that I've had for as long as I can remember I feel like I'm 90 years old. I just turned 36 last week.  I can't remember things I need to remember...simple things. I'm angry...very angry and I am not fun to be around. I'm losing weight but at this point who freaking cares...

August 13, 2012

I know I skipped quite a few days.  Last week was a pretty low week for me and I didn't feel well at all.  As of yesterday I started feeling better so maybe all this stuff I'm throwing at this thing is finally sticking.  Hopefully. 

Burned: 2485/2400
Consumed: 1806/1400
Deficit: 679/1000
Water consumed: 60oz

I had a bad eating day yesterday. But I'm going to do better today. I was in one of those moods yesterday where I just didn't care. But I'm over that. I've downed 20oz of water already today, eaten my Whole Grain Cream of Wheat for breakfast and am off to a good start.  Last week I only lost 1lb. So this week I have to lose 3 instead of 2. With all the housework that I have to catch up on, the burning should be easy.  lol

Tuesday, August 7, 2012 * The late and long edition

Burned: 2882/2400
Consumed: 1468/1400
Deficit: 1414/1000
Water consumed: 80 oz
Workout: Turbo Fire Hiit 20 and Fire 45

Yesterday I made up for missing a workout by doing 2.  Used to, that would be no big deal because the equivalent of the two workouts equal one long one.  Well, yesterday it was the kiss of death for me.  I worked out early so that I would have the most energy.  After my shower, I did a few things around the house and that's all I could do.  I tried to get the  kids to take a nap but of course it was just trampoline time on my bed (not Sydney of course).  I dragged around, took all my energy to make dinner and get ready for the meeting.  I didn't even have energy to wear makeup.  At meeting, I was asked to be a substitute householder and I had to muster up energy and not look like I was about to pass out.  All through the talk I kept thinking about what would happen if I passed out on stage.  Not a pretty sight I'm sure.  During meeting I kept feeling like I was going to cry because I was just so tired.

This has happened each time I workout...afterward I can barely stand.  My BP stays really low.  I feel faint.  My face and extremities tingle and I get pins and needles.  I feel like I can't lift my arms and that I just want to collapse in a heap. I can barely care for my/our children.  (There are days that it happens and I haven't even worked out!) And that is irresponsible.  So...I guess for now...my soul-mate workout is going to have to be shelved.  At least until I can figure out what's going to work and bring my BP up.  I just have to make my burn goal of 2400 calories which I'm sure I can do by the time I clean up after and play with the kids, run errands, go in service, etc.  Life comes before fun.

So, my posts won't have a workout in them for a while.  This is the 3rd summer this has happened to me. Maybe in the fall it'll be better.  I hope so.

Monday, August 6, 2012

Burned: 2384/2400
Consumed: 1453/1400
Deficit :931/1000
Workout: none rest
Water: 64oz
Weight: 191.7

I'm hanging on to water, and feeling exhausted, light-headed, dizzy, faint. BP still really low averaging around 80/50. Taking b vitamins but need to buy magnesium. Gotta do that. Maybe it'll help!!

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Burned: 2875/2400
Consumed: 1348/1400
Deficit: 1527/1000
Water: 64 oz? Not sure...
Workout: Turbo Fire 45ez

I lowered my calorie goals  to 1400 consumed and 2400 burned. On my low bp days and when I'm not feeling well, I'm struggling to get even that.  I'm still aiming for 1000 deficit per day so that I lose 2lbs per week.  I'm today back at 190.8.  I think the water is regulating in my system.  All that sweating from working out doesn't hurt either! Just got done mowing the lawn so got that extra exercise in today too. If it's not raining we'll walk at the track tonight.

Catching up...July 30 - Aug 1, 2012

Monday:
Burned:3129/2650
Consumed: 1597/1650
Deficit: 1532/1000
Workout: Turbo Fire 45ez
Water consumed: 96oz

Tuesday:
Burned: 2041/2650
Consumed: 1703/1650
Deficit: 338/1000
Workout: Rest Day
Water: 64oz
Had a really low bp day.  NO energy and felt very weak. It was everything I had to take care of the kids and go to meeting.

Wednesday:
Burned: 2589/2650
Consumed: 1537/1650
Deficit: 1052/1000
Workout: Turbo Fire Hiit 25
Water: 64 oz
Also feeling low today but pushed through the workout. I was wiped out for the rest of the evening though and didn't make my burned goal.

This week's weight is: 192.6. I should really be a lot lower by now, but not drinking too much because of convention and not wanting to keep getting up and going to the bathroom kind of messed up my water and I've been holding on to a lot of it. I should be around 188 or 187 right now.  I wish I could jut release this extra water so I feel like I'm making some progress. Oh well...maybe I'll catch up.