Short post...

Well now T doesn't work on my laptop at all so I'm posting from my phone.

Yesterday numbers:
Burned: 2834/2500
Eaten: 933/1500
Deficit: 1901/1000
Water: 80oz
Workout: Fire 55ez

I've stopped losing weight. I really hope it's just because of soreness and DOMS and not because I'm in starvation mode. Although I guess starving people end up losing weight too right? I know that's not the best comparison but I just can't eat regular food yet. I'm so tired of oatmeal and cream of wheat. I've added snacks of bananas and kefir but I am still short in calories everyday. Hmmmm. Maybe once I'm not sore, I'll start losing again. We'll see. 

Blessing in disguise?

Ugh, this dumb keyboard! I'm gonna try my best...I actually took a key that I never use and put it where the T key is supposed to be.  But I have to hit it hard to get it to register.  OY...it's like using one of those old-timey typewriters.

So, back to my original statement. As horrible as this stomach illness has been...I've noticed something today.  My cravings are gone.  Weird right?  I mean I may see something and think, "oh that would be good", but I don't crave chocolate or pizza like I used to.  So, something good has come out of all of this. It sure has catapulted me into losing weight and that's a good thing.  I'm 3 pounds away from a 50lb loss (again). I guess in all our trials, we can learn something and use it to improve our lives in one way or another.

So...here's my numbers from yesterday:
Burned: 2535/2500
Eaten: 1358/1500
Deficit: 1177/1000
Water: 100oz
Workout: Core 20 Stretch 40

The stretch workout was a lot easier than it usually is and I enjoyed it a lot more.
Ta-Ta For Now!!
Dee

Playing catch-up again...

Wow it's hard to type without a physical T key on the keyboard.  There's a plastic nub where the key used to be, so I can't type quickly, unless I wan all of my senences o look like his...<----- hehehe="hehehe" p="p">
Monday:
Burned: 2545/2500
Eaten: 877/1500
Deficit: 1668/1000
Water: 90oz (been keeping track...great little program on my phone called Water Your Body. It's available for Android and IOS!)
Workout: Turbo Free Hiit 15 and Tone 30

Tuesday:
Burned: 2728/2500
Eaten: 1220/1500
Deficit: 1508/1000
Water: 80oz
Workout: Turbo Fire 45ez and Stretch 10

Notice anything about my burn numbers? They're finally at or above target! That's because I started working out again. I did an experiment today and had a cup of weak instant coffee and I thought I was okay...didn't have too many problems right away but about an hour later there was some burning in my stomach. Not near as bad as before...but it was still there. I had a regular bowl of rice chex with skim milk for lunch and that's killing me. So, experiment over, back to my old diet. I wasn't feeling as bad so I just wanted to test if I was actually getting better or not.  Apparently not...yet.

 

But despite how crappy I feel today, I've got my game face on and am determined to DO MORE!!

Finally making progress again in my weight going down...even though right now my body is SOOOO sore from working out again.  But sore is good, sore means I'm changing my body.

Love and hugs,
Dee

Weekend woes

So all the kids are sick. I'm not feeling great either, which isn't surprising since Bryson coughs in my face all night. :-/
Saturday:
Burned: 2094/2500
Eaten: 1167/1500
Deficit: 927/1000
Water 60 oz
Sunday:
Burned: 2087/2500
Eaten: 822/1500
Deficit: 1265/1000
Water: 60oz
This weekend I really just rested. My body ached and I had a sore throat. Off and on stomach aches too. Today starts day 1 of Alli's 90 day challenge and I've got my meals for the week planned (pretty easy when all you can stomach is cream of wheat and oatmeal), my workout schedule ready and I am excited to see the changes in my body.
The good news? I'm at 187.4 today. That's 4.7 less than last Monday. I'm nervous because usually when I start exercising again I retain water but I've gotta remind myself to look at the big picture and what I will have accomplished at the end of 90 days. As sick as this esophagus/GERD thing has made me, I've committed to this challenge so I've got to workout when scheduled everyday. Maybe I'll start feeling better overall and can go back to normal life.
OK...speaking of workouts, mine is cued up and ready so I'm gonna try to drink this herbal lemon tea and ease into it.
Love and hugs...Dee

For Friday

Burned: 2258/2500
Eaten: 1105/1500
Deficit: 1153/1000

Didn't burn a lot yesterday... sick kids, not feeling so good either. Today's burn numbers aren't looking so great. I hope I have energy for workout on Monday. I am getting a sore throat too. :-(

Missed a day...sorry

I forgot to post yesterday...sorry.  It wasn't the best day...didn't get much sleep Wednesday night and no caffeine is killer.  My stomach hurt a lot too.  This post will have to be short cuz my T key is giving me a hard time!!

Okay..Wednesday:
Burn: 2481/2500
Eaten: 1205/1500
Deficit: 1276/1000
Water: 80oz

Thursday:
Burn: 2068/2500
Eaten: 917/1500
Deficit: 1151/1000
Water: 80oz

Yesterday I didn't feel well and didn't do a whole lot.  Monday I'll start TurboFire for the 90day challenge...excited!!

Love and hugs...
Dee

Surprisingly not hungry...

Hey guys...one more day done and I'm not really eating a whole lot.  Yesterday it was whole grain oatmeal for breakfast, dinner with Carnation instant breakfast and skim milk for lunch. I also had the Carnation after meeting last night.  I'm not sure if I'll keep going with the Carnation, or at least not before bed, because my stomach hurt last night.  I also had a major headache. So did my poor honey.  He had to do the Bible reading with a migraine last night...poor guy! He did great though, as usual.  I did some massages for hiatal hernia last night, because I keep reading that it inevitably comes with GERD, GastroEsophigialRefluxDisease, which is what I really think I have.  It hurt really bad afterward.  Maybe it helped, I have no idea.

Calories eaten: 1034/1500
Calories burned: 2473/2500
Deficit: 1439/1000
Water: 60oz

I think I may either add another bowl of oatmeal or something to bring my calories up to 1200/day. I don't want my body to go into starvation mode.

Bye for now!

You live, you learn...

I'm learning a lot.  I'm learning for instance that as much as I love coffee, it's time for us to part ways.  Yes I know I was supposed to,before but it's part of my morning routine. It makes my day feel complete.  OY...but then it burns like a @#%!! Then I remember why I can't have it.  Ok...lesson learned!!

On to yesterday's numbers:
Calories Eaten: 1136/1500 I was on the oatmeal diet yesterday. I did have some coffee in the morning and some rice and a few baked french fries at night.  It hurt...my esophagus feels like there's something in it stuck all the time.  (Wow I've used the word esophagus a lot lately! EW!)
Calories Burned: 2214/2500 I was doing okay, got a lot accomplished, beds made, rooms cleaned, laundry done and folded, etc..but toward the afternoon I just felt worse and worse.  I couldn't move because of the pain and headache.  I was miserable. 
Deficit: 1078/1000. 
Water: I lost track.  I think it was 60oz but honestly I'm not sure.  Gonna work on that. 

Well, hope everyone has a terrific day!

Who's up for a challenge??

I'm so excited guys!! I was invited to join a 90 day challenge, hosted by one of my favorite people, Alli Vaughn.  I know Mom & Dad, you don't know her and Andy has never met her but Cherish and Susannah, you guys know how awesome she is! :)  I'm nervous but really excited.  She's allowing me in without Shakeology for now, but I do need to get some ASAP...maybe if we get a tax return I can get some.  I may buy a week's worth before then from Alli.  But I'm excited to take my before pics and measurements and see results! Although I had to take a break from Turbo Fire, I'm gonna start where I left off and hope I don't keep getting nauseous after my workouts. Maybe the accountability from being in the group and making the commitment is just what I need to get outside my comfort zone and seeing great results! You all know I LOVE Turbo Fire, but if I start getting sick after my workouts again, I'll switch over to Chalean Extreme with walking as my cardio. 

So I guess I'll be posting my calories eaten and burned and deficit again. My weigh-ins are now Mondays because of the challenge.  Today I'm starting at 192.1. I'm still dealing with the weird "something is stuck in my throat" feeling and so I've gotta go back to really simple and bland foods like oatmeal, etc and give my digestive system a rest. I'm on my 2nd week of the Prilosec and hoping it'll start working soon.

Ok, got a million things to do...so bye! :)

Two-thousand thirteen

So, here we are, at the dawn of a new year...again.  This is an inevitable day which occurs every year. A day filled with promise, hope, new beginnings, resolutions, etc.  Last year I was sure that by this time I would be at my goal weight.  I was sure of it! But I allowed life to get in my way.  Last year, as this year, I went through a VERY bad depression which ended up turning into a small family crisis. But, things turned around...Andy got a full-time job, we were able to move out on our own, and although things were hard, it was starting to go uphill.  Then the low-blood pressure thing crept in (remember that?) and between that and then the problems with the house that caused us to have to move, we're here.  Now I am dealing with what I have self-diagnosed as an inflamed esophagus.  When I eat or drink, it feels like something is lodged in my throat or in my chest.  Very uncomfortable.  I've been researching things that are safe to eat and am experimenting.  Right now it looks like oatmeal, rice, bread, apples, bananas, low-acid foods are not going to irritate it and are what are on my menu.  That means giving up coffee.  Yes, I know...and today I did fall off the wagon and had a cup of very weak instant...but it hurt so I know I need to lay off it for a while.  So, bland it is.  Maybe my stomach will shrink and I won't get so hungry. I know these are excuses and that other people have lost weight despite much worse than this and I can beat myself up about it but why? What good does that do? All I can do at this point is move forward.

I have, yet again set a goal date for my weight loss: August 31, 2013.  After my 37th birthday and our 17th wedding anniversary.  Maybe I'll try to get there a bit before then.

Monday I will start doing Chalean Extreme again, since a lot of activity makes me feel sick with this esophagus thing going on.   I will do walking for my cardio days. 

Here's to a better, more productive year.  May everyone reach their goals and then some!!
Love and hugs,
Dee

**Oh I forgot...

If you're replying to the email to comment...it's not getting to me. I guess if you hit reply make sure my email address is in the address bar...otherwise I guess it gets lost in cyberspace. Or you can click on the blog and comment on the actual post.

Sorry guys!!

Wednesday, 12/19/12

Yesterday wasn't the amazing day I was hoping for.  I spent most of the with nausea...actually it's not really normal nausea.  I don't know how to explain it. It's that feeling you get just before you're going to throw up, except nothing happens.  So I'm stuck with that feeling after I eat anything.  Yesterday it was miserable. I got my workout in at like 8:15 last night and I felt so sick afterwards.  I had to have some ginger ale and stay sitting up until the feeling passed so I could go to sleep.  So...I guess maybe I'll just eat really light, super small portions and if that doesn't work I'll fast for a couple days.  My coffee in the mornings burns my stomach and the when I eat I just feel like the food is stuck...and it feels like it doesn't digest. OY...there's always something!

Yesterday's numbers:
Burned: 3253/2500
Eaten: 1900/1500 (Yes...I know)
Deficit: 1353/1000
Water: 40oz
Workout: 1/2 mile walk and Turbo Fire 55ez

Today I'm going to work on drinking my 100oz water and eating super light...just enough so I'm not starving but nowhere near getting full so I don't have to deal with the nausea/weird pukey feeling. 

Monday Dec 17 and Tuesday Dec 18

Wow...this has been a lousy week so far.  I've felt like junk.  Physically and emotionally.  My depression is hitting me hard.  Well, you'll see that reflected in yesterday's numbers.

Monday:
Burned: 2635/2500
Eaten: 1502/1500
Deficit: 1133/1000
Water: don't remember
Workout: Hiit 15 and Sculpt 30

Tuesday:
Burned: 2492/2500 (so close!)
Eaten: 2263/1500 (yeah...I eat when I'm depressed.)
Deficit: 229/1000
Water: 20oz
Workout: none

So many problems with yesterday.  I woke up in a lousy mood.  Was grouchy most of the day. Ended up taking a nap to try and get myself out of the funk I was in.  Didnt' drink enough water. I worked hard all day to not give in to that urge to dull everything with food.  It worked until about 10 or so.  I listened to a friend talk about the really hard and crappy time she's going through and I couldn't hold it all in anymore.  All bets were lost.  It isn't near as bad as some of my binges, but still I'm ashamed and feel horrible about it.  So...I've figured out I need to have a deficit of 1300 calories today and tomorrow to meet my 7000 calorie deficit goal for this week.  It doesn't help that I'm incredibly sore, and because of DOMS (delayed onset muscle soreness) (See article) I'm holding in about 3 pounds of water weight.  GRRRRR...I hate the scale.  I know my muscles are busy repairing and that will help them be stronger but it's just annoying.  Today my knee is KILLING ME...absolutely.  It hurts to walk or do anything but I've got lots to do, and workouts to catch up on...calories to burn.  So pain pills have been ingested and let the day continue...I really need to do something inspiring, cool, amazing, etc...really need to make today get me out of this funk...(but if that doesn't work I've called the Dr to get me some meds for this junk).

Love to all...make your day great...I plan to!

Sunday, 12/16/12

Quick post today...yesterday's numbers:
Burned: 2412/2500
Eaten: 1364/1500
Deficit: 1048/1000
Water consumed: 60oz
Workout: Hiit 20

Friday, December 14 & Saturday, December 15

Two days in one post...what??!! I was so busy yesterday I had no time, then when I did have time, the internet was out.

Friday's numbers are:
Burned: 2465/2500
Eaten: 1369/1500
Deficit: 1096/1000
Water: 100oz
Took day as rest day because I was feeling pukey.

Saturday...ok first I gotta explain.  Saturday was gonna be a calm day...sitting all day at the assembly. I had two choices...just take the day as a high calorie eaten and lower calorie burn or do something about it. So I set my alarm for 6am.  It went off...I turned it off and layed in bed, thinking...yeah maybe I'll just sleep an extra hour.  But then I kicked my own butt, got up and did my workout.  No, my eating choices were not the best as far as calories go...but I made SURE I worked hard to burn the calories I ate. After assembly, even though most days I would have just hung out and chilled, we had a dance party to burn those calories off.  We danced until almost midnight.  They're not perfect but I'm not ashamed of my numbers like I would normally be...
Burned: 3093/2500
Eaten: 2224/1500
Deficit: 869/1000 (I will make those up during the week...got a 7000 calorie deficit goal for the week as my BIG GOAL, in order to lose 2 pounds/week)
Water: 66oz
Workout: Fire 45 and dancing

Yes I know I'm not perfect in my eating, but I feel like I can make a decision to at least burn off the calories I eat.  That makes me feel better.  I am working everyday to make healthier choices, to not have a second serving of this or that...to have a healthy breakfast (or any breakfast), or healthy lunch or dinner, more fruit, water, etc.  Small changes are better than none.

Love to all!

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Okay...today's Friday...aka weigh-in day!!  I'm actually excited about this one! I'm at 191.7 today. That means I lost 4.4 pounds this week! WOOT!! :)  I've been working hard to keep my calories in check and make sure I meet my burn goal.  This weekend is going to be tough as we have Special Assembly Day, and we sit an hour in the car to and from, and sit all day.  I will try to walk around before and during lunch and maybe take the kids to the park after if it's not too dark once we get home.  I'll also be moving my workout to Sunday, my normal rest day.

Yesterday's numbers:
Burned: 2624/2500
Eaten: 1356/1500
Deficit: 1268/1000
Water: 100 oz
Workout: Core 20 and Stretch 40.  I'm feeling it in my abs today...yikes!!

Have a good day everyone!! :)

Wednesday, 12-12-12!!!

I wanted to do something really epic and cool for 12-12-12 but we didn't do anything really awesome. We had a dozen dinner, so that was pretty cool.

Here are yesterday's numbers:
Burned: 2763/2500
Eaten: 1810/1500 (Yes...I went overboard on our dozen dinner...but since I had extra calories from the day before I figured it would make up for it.)
Deficit: 953/1000
Water: 80oz
Workout: 1 mile walk around the track outside.  I was scheduled for Fire 30 but had such a bad headache that when I took the kids to the park I decided to walk instead. 

Gotta go get my workout in. Late, but better late than never! :)

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Hey everybody! Short post cuz I have a lot to get done...but here's yesterday's stats:

Burned: 3262/2500
Eaten: 1781/1500 (yes I went over but did you see how many calories I burned???)
Deficit: 1481/1000
Water consumed: 60 oz (gotta work on it, some days I'm just so cold I don't want to drink)
Workout: Fire 55ez

Feeling queasy today and kinda sick to my stomach, but hopefully that'll pass.  Gotta do down a ton of water and then go, go, go!

Love and hugs to all!!

Monday, December 10, 2012

Yesterday was a really great day.  I was mindful of what I was eating all day, drank my water, did my workout.  I have to keep up this lifestyle if I'm going to see results.  One day at a time. 

I read a blog lately where the woman lost over 100 pounds. She said the way she kept herself going was by asking herself "Can I do this today?"  She did this everyday and that's how she made it through. I know it's not an easy journey, as I've been on it for quite a number of years...but this time is the last time I'm going from this heavy.  I'm done with it.

Okay...here are today's numbers:
Burned: 2808/2500
Eaten: 1343/1500
Deficit: 1465/1000
Water: 100 oz

I won't share my weigh-ins until Fridays...but today was encouraging.  I know it's water but I really needed to get rid of it!!

Thanks for supporting me on my journey!!

I'm not as strong as all that...

It's been 37 days since my last post.  Those who know me know that November was not an easy month on our family.  We started at the end of October with finding out the house had BIG TIME septic problems that were way too expensive to fix.  We were told by the plumber that we needed to let it dry up under the house and it was going to cost in excess of $500 to repair.  There was mold growing on things in the closets and on some of the kids toys.  With 2 asthsmatic kids and one possibly, we didn't know what to do.  The kids and I packed up and went to Mom & Dad's house.  Mostly by Holy Spirit (I'm convinced!) our dear friend shopped at a store she wouldn't normally go to and happened to find a place for rent.  She spoke to the owners and at first, when I called them and inquired about the house, it didn't look like we would even have a chance to get it. Well, long story short...we did and we are living here now! It's a great place with room to grow (has a storage room that with permission could be turned into a 4th bedroom). It's warm, cozy, with no major problems and we LOVE it!!

So now that all the excuses are gone...it's time to refocus.  I have started another thyroid medication, Synthroid, one I've taken before and had good results with.  So far, so good. I've been taking it for about 2 weeks now, and I have energy and best of all no crazy migraines like with the other medication. YAY!! 

I bare my soul on this blog, so I am sad to say I'm starting over again at 195.4. I had surprisingly lost 2 pounds while at my parents house, but they came back and brought a couple friends.  Mind you, it's that time of the month so I could be retaining, but nevertheless, it is what it is and that's my starting point.  I'm starting my first Turbo Fire workout today and am determined to continue for the whole program.  I'm excited to see the changes that occur at that point.  Maybe by then I'll have some courage to post some pictures...at this point I'm still at the before, and so you ain't seeing nothing!! LOL

So, my goal date is August 3, 2013 according to the Bodybugg results calculator. That's eating 1400 calories per day and burning 2400, for a 1000 calorie daily deficit.  I aim to drink 100 oz of water per day and I think I'm basically going to eat the same things for breakfast and lunch everyday to keep myself consistent, then just calculate what's for dinner and plan to see exactly how much I can have in order to stay within calories. I may post my intake/output here daily like I used to, so PLEASE let me know if you don't like getting the posts (for those of you I have on direct delivery). You who get these emails, I have chosen you as my support system.  :)

Well, here we go.  I'm planning on working hard and really want to see those results. I'm tired of starting over and over and over.  But the good thing is, at least I haven't quit yet!  NEVER GIVE UP!!