Wednesday

Yesterday I was really hungry.  Like all day.  I'm not sure what that was about.  I haven't been drinking my 100oz of water like I need to, so today that's a goal for me.

Burned: 2831/2500
Eaten: 1772/1500
Deficit: 1059/1000
Water: 60oz
Workout: Fire 45

Sorry so short, not a lot to say today. xoxo

A minor victory

I'm beginning to think I owe a lot more to this stomach/esophagus illness than blame.  Don't get me wrong, it's not that I like it at all.  I hate the nausea and pain, the feeling I can't breathe, etc.   But because eating hurts, I've lost interest.  I only eat because of hunger and sometimes not even then.  I've even fallen out of love with coffee...can you imagine???

I've explained it to a few people...but have you ever eaten something dry and not chewed enough and you can feel it travelling down your throat? Have you ever had the wind knocked out of you and you have that pain in your chest and the middle of your back and feel like you can't breathe?  That's what it feels like when I eat solid food. I mean, I can handle the oatmeal, cream of wheat, etc pretty good but for instance last night I had a turkey sandwich for dinner and was miserable after.  I burped and my stomach burned.  Last night my esophagus spasmed and kept me from sleeping.  This morning it still feels closed up.

So after all that, why in the world would I say that I owe this sickness more than just blame??  Because last night I had a small victory.  I was emotionally upset. In the past, this would have sent me straight to the kitchen.  In the days before we found out Bryson had allergies to corn, soy, garlic, latex, etc...we would have had plenty of snacks to choose from.  Whether it was cookies or chips or even nasty old fruit snacks.  I have been known to eat a full sleeve of fig newtons when I'm upset.  Something about that sweetness, the soft cake-like texture...but I digress.  But last night...not only was I not feeling well physically but there's nothing to eat.  Who stress eats grapes or apples, or a bowl of raisin bran?  LOL...just not the right kind of comfort food.  Sadly, that still means that if we had those things in the house I may have eaten them...but maybe not.  So I'm gonna call it a victory.

So on to my numbers for yesterday:
Burned: 2807/2500
Eaten: 1304/1500
Deficit: 1503/1000
Water: 80 oz
Workout: Fire 55ez

Love and hugs,
Dee

Another short post...

Burned: 2532/2500
Eaten: 1351/1500
Deficit: 1181/1000
Water: 60 oz (gotta do better with this today)
Workout: Fire 30

Sick kids, not feeling well...trying to keep positive.  Gotta run!

New week...

Yesterday's post was awfully short, wasn't it? That's because I was in a pretty lousy mood.  I was gonna go off and vent about how bad I felt, gripe gripe gripe.  But that's not good for me.  I'm not saying venting is bad, I'm saying for me, it's just too negative. I seem to get stuck in a cycle of negativity so it's better to let those bad days or moments go and move on.

I had a doctor's appointment today but I had to reschedule because my poor Sydney is very sick.  I'm not sure when I'm going because their computers were down at the Dr's office and so they have to call me back with an appointment time.  This weekend wasn't too bad with pain...basically Saturday I didn't eat until half the day was over and felt fine.  I wish I could get away without eating! LOL  Feeling that TOM today and yesterday, lots of pain but gotta push through and do my workout for today.  They say exercise is supposed to help.  (BTW...who are "they" and won't they just shut up!!?? LOL)

Okay...here are yesterday's numbers. Nothing spectacular or even great because I did NOTHING yesterday.  It was a rest day and I rested with a heating pad...and chocolates....shhh!!

Burned: 1883/2500
Eaten: 1382/1500
Deficit: 501/1000
Water: 60oz
Workout: Rest day

It's a weigh-in Monday and on that note...weight is 183.6. 1.3 pounds and I'll be at my lowest since I had Bryson. September 7, 2011 I weighed 182.4 which was my lowest at that point...so I am really striving to get past that and keep moving on.

Love and hugs,
Dee

Saturday

Burned: 2802/2500
Eaten: 1408/1500
Deficit: 1394/1000
Water: 80 oz
Workout: Fire 30 Sculpt 30

Planned cheat day

I finally learned from my challenge group how to do a planned cheat day. I always thought it was an "eat whatever you want all day" kinda thing...but it is not.  That's a good thing.  It is a day where you plan a meal...a MEAL you can consume no more than 500 extra calories.  Maybe you've got a party coming up or KARAOKE lol...you can choose that as your cheat meal and just make sure you don't go over 500 calories extra.  Although I haven't been able to eat a lot (good thing), I have been kinda lax towards the end of this week and have been off my GERD diet.  I am so tired of consuming nothing but kefir, instant breakfast, cream of wheat and oatmeal.  I need food with substance.  So I had some chips the other day...just some...and last night I had pizza.  Yesterday was my cheat day...and I only went less than 200 calories over my allotment, so it wasn't that bad.  I enjoyed that pizza to death...lol. But the pizza didn't enjoy me! hahaha  Also for some reason I woke up with a bladder infection.  Weird since I've been taking garlic (antibiotic properties). OH well..my crazy body.  I wonder if it was the extra sodium.  Other than the chips, I don't eat much sodium in oatmeal, etc.  Hmmm....

I'm home with sick kids today again.  They're always sick. :( My poor kids. One has stomach issues, 2 are coughing like crazy still.  Hubby not feeling well either. 

Friday:
Burned: 2868/2500
Eaten: 1669/1500
Deficit:  1199/1000
Water: 100oz
Workout: 55ez

Have a great weekend all!

Okay...so forget it

I didn't even remember to blog yesterday. It was a busy day. One thing I did do is call the doctor and make an appointment.  I didn't even last a day with the juice.  It burned on the way down and it burned in my stomach. I did it again and same results, plus overwhelming nausea and the feeling that I'd been kicked in the chest.  Very painful and hard to breathe.  I decided this thing is bigger than me and I need professional help. So I have an appointment for Monday with a gastro doc.

Wednesday:
Burned: 2203/2500
Eaten: 671/1500
Deficit: 1532/1000
Water: 80 oz
Workout: Core 20 (missed stretch 40 since I was feeling so bad)

Thursday:
Burned: 2959/2500
Eaten: 1428/1500
Deficit: 1531/1000
Water: 70 oz
Workout: Fire 45 Stretch 10

Yesterday I had good sustained energy and I'm sure I owe it to the juice.  I wish it didn't burn so bad while drinking and after. I know the nutrients are just what our bodies need in this world full of GMO and fake foods.  Fruits and veggies are what Jehovah God gave us to start with.  I am trying to incorporate them more into our family's life everyday.  Whole, natural foods.  I just wish I could eat them!!

Love and hugs!!
Dee

Change of plans...

So in my last post was about how I was going to go to the Doc...but I'm gonna try one last ditch effort to heal my body before I go.

What is this concoction, you ask? It's vegetable/fruit juice.  Precisely: 6 kale leaves, 4 celery stalks, 1 cucumber, 1/2 lemon, a piece of ginger and 2 apples.  I added some aloe juice in there too for cleansing properties.  I'm going to drink 3 glasses of this size everyday for 1 week. If I feel better than great, if not I'll go to the doc.

On to the numbers:
Monday:
Burned: 2609/2500
Eaten: 1518/1500
Deficit: 1091/1000
Water: 80oz
Workout: Hiit 20 & Sculpt 30

tuesday:
Burned: 2575/2500
Eaten: 1199/1500
Deficit: 1376/1000
Water: 90oz
Workout: Fire 55ez

Felt really bad yesterday all day...but life goes on.

The weekend

Our weekend wasn't what we planned, but it was still good.  Saturday we went to a farm to get raw milk for Bryson's eczema.  Loved petting the animals. I hope it helps him. Yesterday was meeting, followed by a walk at the park on a beautiful day...then washing and vacumming out Goldie...boy she needed it, shopping and KARAOKE!!  FUN!!

Friday:
Burned: 2843/2500
Eaten: 1248/1500
Deficit: 1595/1000
Water: 60 oz
Workout: Fire 45 Stretch 10

Sat:
Burned: 2280/2500
Eaten: 1328/1500
Deficit: 952/1000
Water: 60oz
Workout: Hiit 20

Been trying to eat a little more to not allow my metabolism to slow too much.

Sun:
Burned: 2605/2500
Eaten: 1367/1500
Deficit: 1238/1000
Water: 80oz
Workout: rest day...took 1.82 mile walk with a friend.

Weigh-in Monday: Weight 186.7  That's only .8 lbs down from last week but seeing I lost over 4 lbs last week, I'm not complaining. 

I have also decided to go to the doctor.  I tried to eat normal food during the weekend just one meal per day, and since yesterday I have been non-stop nauseated.  I feel that awful feeling in my esophagus again and I've had enough.  So tomorrow I'll be calling around Dr offices for an appointment.  I hope I don't get the run around.  I just wanna know what's going on so I can heal and get back to my life.

Love and hugs...
Dee

Short post...

Well now T doesn't work on my laptop at all so I'm posting from my phone.

Yesterday numbers:
Burned: 2834/2500
Eaten: 933/1500
Deficit: 1901/1000
Water: 80oz
Workout: Fire 55ez

I've stopped losing weight. I really hope it's just because of soreness and DOMS and not because I'm in starvation mode. Although I guess starving people end up losing weight too right? I know that's not the best comparison but I just can't eat regular food yet. I'm so tired of oatmeal and cream of wheat. I've added snacks of bananas and kefir but I am still short in calories everyday. Hmmmm. Maybe once I'm not sore, I'll start losing again. We'll see. 

Blessing in disguise?

Ugh, this dumb keyboard! I'm gonna try my best...I actually took a key that I never use and put it where the T key is supposed to be.  But I have to hit it hard to get it to register.  OY...it's like using one of those old-timey typewriters.

So, back to my original statement. As horrible as this stomach illness has been...I've noticed something today.  My cravings are gone.  Weird right?  I mean I may see something and think, "oh that would be good", but I don't crave chocolate or pizza like I used to.  So, something good has come out of all of this. It sure has catapulted me into losing weight and that's a good thing.  I'm 3 pounds away from a 50lb loss (again). I guess in all our trials, we can learn something and use it to improve our lives in one way or another.

So...here's my numbers from yesterday:
Burned: 2535/2500
Eaten: 1358/1500
Deficit: 1177/1000
Water: 100oz
Workout: Core 20 Stretch 40

The stretch workout was a lot easier than it usually is and I enjoyed it a lot more.
Ta-Ta For Now!!
Dee

Playing catch-up again...

Wow it's hard to type without a physical T key on the keyboard.  There's a plastic nub where the key used to be, so I can't type quickly, unless I wan all of my senences o look like his...<----- hehehe="hehehe" p="p">
Monday:
Burned: 2545/2500
Eaten: 877/1500
Deficit: 1668/1000
Water: 90oz (been keeping track...great little program on my phone called Water Your Body. It's available for Android and IOS!)
Workout: Turbo Free Hiit 15 and Tone 30

Tuesday:
Burned: 2728/2500
Eaten: 1220/1500
Deficit: 1508/1000
Water: 80oz
Workout: Turbo Fire 45ez and Stretch 10

Notice anything about my burn numbers? They're finally at or above target! That's because I started working out again. I did an experiment today and had a cup of weak instant coffee and I thought I was okay...didn't have too many problems right away but about an hour later there was some burning in my stomach. Not near as bad as before...but it was still there. I had a regular bowl of rice chex with skim milk for lunch and that's killing me. So, experiment over, back to my old diet. I wasn't feeling as bad so I just wanted to test if I was actually getting better or not.  Apparently not...yet.

 

But despite how crappy I feel today, I've got my game face on and am determined to DO MORE!!

Finally making progress again in my weight going down...even though right now my body is SOOOO sore from working out again.  But sore is good, sore means I'm changing my body.

Love and hugs,
Dee

Weekend woes

So all the kids are sick. I'm not feeling great either, which isn't surprising since Bryson coughs in my face all night. :-/
Saturday:
Burned: 2094/2500
Eaten: 1167/1500
Deficit: 927/1000
Water 60 oz
Sunday:
Burned: 2087/2500
Eaten: 822/1500
Deficit: 1265/1000
Water: 60oz
This weekend I really just rested. My body ached and I had a sore throat. Off and on stomach aches too. Today starts day 1 of Alli's 90 day challenge and I've got my meals for the week planned (pretty easy when all you can stomach is cream of wheat and oatmeal), my workout schedule ready and I am excited to see the changes in my body.
The good news? I'm at 187.4 today. That's 4.7 less than last Monday. I'm nervous because usually when I start exercising again I retain water but I've gotta remind myself to look at the big picture and what I will have accomplished at the end of 90 days. As sick as this esophagus/GERD thing has made me, I've committed to this challenge so I've got to workout when scheduled everyday. Maybe I'll start feeling better overall and can go back to normal life.
OK...speaking of workouts, mine is cued up and ready so I'm gonna try to drink this herbal lemon tea and ease into it.
Love and hugs...Dee

For Friday

Burned: 2258/2500
Eaten: 1105/1500
Deficit: 1153/1000

Didn't burn a lot yesterday... sick kids, not feeling so good either. Today's burn numbers aren't looking so great. I hope I have energy for workout on Monday. I am getting a sore throat too. :-(

Missed a day...sorry

I forgot to post yesterday...sorry.  It wasn't the best day...didn't get much sleep Wednesday night and no caffeine is killer.  My stomach hurt a lot too.  This post will have to be short cuz my T key is giving me a hard time!!

Okay..Wednesday:
Burn: 2481/2500
Eaten: 1205/1500
Deficit: 1276/1000
Water: 80oz

Thursday:
Burn: 2068/2500
Eaten: 917/1500
Deficit: 1151/1000
Water: 80oz

Yesterday I didn't feel well and didn't do a whole lot.  Monday I'll start TurboFire for the 90day challenge...excited!!

Love and hugs...
Dee

Surprisingly not hungry...

Hey guys...one more day done and I'm not really eating a whole lot.  Yesterday it was whole grain oatmeal for breakfast, dinner with Carnation instant breakfast and skim milk for lunch. I also had the Carnation after meeting last night.  I'm not sure if I'll keep going with the Carnation, or at least not before bed, because my stomach hurt last night.  I also had a major headache. So did my poor honey.  He had to do the Bible reading with a migraine last night...poor guy! He did great though, as usual.  I did some massages for hiatal hernia last night, because I keep reading that it inevitably comes with GERD, GastroEsophigialRefluxDisease, which is what I really think I have.  It hurt really bad afterward.  Maybe it helped, I have no idea.

Calories eaten: 1034/1500
Calories burned: 2473/2500
Deficit: 1439/1000
Water: 60oz

I think I may either add another bowl of oatmeal or something to bring my calories up to 1200/day. I don't want my body to go into starvation mode.

Bye for now!

You live, you learn...

I'm learning a lot.  I'm learning for instance that as much as I love coffee, it's time for us to part ways.  Yes I know I was supposed to,before but it's part of my morning routine. It makes my day feel complete.  OY...but then it burns like a @#%!! Then I remember why I can't have it.  Ok...lesson learned!!

On to yesterday's numbers:
Calories Eaten: 1136/1500 I was on the oatmeal diet yesterday. I did have some coffee in the morning and some rice and a few baked french fries at night.  It hurt...my esophagus feels like there's something in it stuck all the time.  (Wow I've used the word esophagus a lot lately! EW!)
Calories Burned: 2214/2500 I was doing okay, got a lot accomplished, beds made, rooms cleaned, laundry done and folded, etc..but toward the afternoon I just felt worse and worse.  I couldn't move because of the pain and headache.  I was miserable. 
Deficit: 1078/1000. 
Water: I lost track.  I think it was 60oz but honestly I'm not sure.  Gonna work on that. 

Well, hope everyone has a terrific day!

Who's up for a challenge??

I'm so excited guys!! I was invited to join a 90 day challenge, hosted by one of my favorite people, Alli Vaughn.  I know Mom & Dad, you don't know her and Andy has never met her but Cherish and Susannah, you guys know how awesome she is! :)  I'm nervous but really excited.  She's allowing me in without Shakeology for now, but I do need to get some ASAP...maybe if we get a tax return I can get some.  I may buy a week's worth before then from Alli.  But I'm excited to take my before pics and measurements and see results! Although I had to take a break from Turbo Fire, I'm gonna start where I left off and hope I don't keep getting nauseous after my workouts. Maybe the accountability from being in the group and making the commitment is just what I need to get outside my comfort zone and seeing great results! You all know I LOVE Turbo Fire, but if I start getting sick after my workouts again, I'll switch over to Chalean Extreme with walking as my cardio. 

So I guess I'll be posting my calories eaten and burned and deficit again. My weigh-ins are now Mondays because of the challenge.  Today I'm starting at 192.1. I'm still dealing with the weird "something is stuck in my throat" feeling and so I've gotta go back to really simple and bland foods like oatmeal, etc and give my digestive system a rest. I'm on my 2nd week of the Prilosec and hoping it'll start working soon.

Ok, got a million things to do...so bye! :)

Two-thousand thirteen

So, here we are, at the dawn of a new year...again.  This is an inevitable day which occurs every year. A day filled with promise, hope, new beginnings, resolutions, etc.  Last year I was sure that by this time I would be at my goal weight.  I was sure of it! But I allowed life to get in my way.  Last year, as this year, I went through a VERY bad depression which ended up turning into a small family crisis. But, things turned around...Andy got a full-time job, we were able to move out on our own, and although things were hard, it was starting to go uphill.  Then the low-blood pressure thing crept in (remember that?) and between that and then the problems with the house that caused us to have to move, we're here.  Now I am dealing with what I have self-diagnosed as an inflamed esophagus.  When I eat or drink, it feels like something is lodged in my throat or in my chest.  Very uncomfortable.  I've been researching things that are safe to eat and am experimenting.  Right now it looks like oatmeal, rice, bread, apples, bananas, low-acid foods are not going to irritate it and are what are on my menu.  That means giving up coffee.  Yes, I know...and today I did fall off the wagon and had a cup of very weak instant...but it hurt so I know I need to lay off it for a while.  So, bland it is.  Maybe my stomach will shrink and I won't get so hungry. I know these are excuses and that other people have lost weight despite much worse than this and I can beat myself up about it but why? What good does that do? All I can do at this point is move forward.

I have, yet again set a goal date for my weight loss: August 31, 2013.  After my 37th birthday and our 17th wedding anniversary.  Maybe I'll try to get there a bit before then.

Monday I will start doing Chalean Extreme again, since a lot of activity makes me feel sick with this esophagus thing going on.   I will do walking for my cardio days. 

Here's to a better, more productive year.  May everyone reach their goals and then some!!
Love and hugs,
Dee