A new commitment

Right now I'm sitting outside by the pool with my kids. It is so hot out today.

I've been thinking, a lot. What would take someone from an 80 pound weight loss to gaining 10 pounds, eating whatever and whenever?  Why would I work so hard, just to abandon ship and go back to my old ways? I don't know  the answer. I wish I did. I wish I understood how I could still daily log everything I eat and look at those numbers and not stop. What makes me feel so down that I push my emotions down with food? Why did I stop exercising?  

I read these old posts from last year and I think... who is this person?  Who is this motivated, motivating person ready to get things accomplished?  I don't know, but I'm gonna find her!! 

All I can do is recommit, and work hard again to stick to it. I've got you, my support team in place.

So I'll post my water consumption, calories in and out and workout here after I do it. This is how I'll stay on track.