Transforming from the inside / out

So I haven't posted anything recently. Well I have been busy, then traveling and finally this week sick from a stomach illness.  Lovely right? Well it's not as glamorous as it seems. Lol!

The good thing that usually comes with any stomach illness is weight loss.  Well I am down 2 lbs, which I would have preferred more, but hey better than nothing. The interesting transformation is my attitude towards food. Maybe good, maybe bad, I'm not sure but right now food is my enemy. I can't look at it and go "mmmm I need that" or "oooh that looks so yummy" because quite frankly food has lost it's appeal.

Monday night, I had what I can only describe as a phantom gallbladder attack. Phantom meaning that I no longer own a gallbladder. But oh that pain. It was misery. I coudn't breathe. I panicked. I hurt more than I had ever hurt, and I've had 3 kids!!!! When I think of that pain, I get scared to ever have that again. I'm not sure what caused it, if it was something I ate, if it was all the vomiting I had engaged in during the course of the day, but seriously I NEVER WANT THAT TO HAPPEN EVER, EVER AGAIN!!!!

What in the world could be good about this? The fact that I've begun to think of food as fuel, to be eaten in small, healthy portions. Maybe that's what I need right now to make my weight loss goal. Maybe this will give me the edge I've been needing.

I've also adjusted my weight loss goal. I had been really working on losing 2 lbs per week. It's not too unreasonable, still within safe parameters right? But I have learned that my body doesn't do that. No matter how clean I eat, no matter how hard I hit my workouts, there are few weeks my body will cooperate with the 2lbs lost goal. This has been very discouraging and I think is a big reason why I have not met my goal. Imagine struggling and not getting as far as you want when you want over and over again. Eventually you want to have times where you are like "who cares? Maybe I'll just stay fat." But I can't do that. My spine can't take the extra weight. So, I guess instead of trying to hit my goal by 39, I will aim for by 40. I am aiming for 1 - 1.5 lbs per week. I would really like it to be sooner and maybe it will happen some weeks, but if it doesn't, I will (hopefully) have reached at least 1 lb gone and that's better than nothing.

Well, I think this post is long enough.  Until another day.

Tough week

This has been a difficult week. I can't pinpont why. But I just can't keep myself on my weight loss plan. Hmmm...

Today I changed my strategy. Got my workout in early. It seems like I burn more calories throughout the day when I get it done early.

I am really excited because next year we are planning a trip to Puerto Rico to celebrate my parents 30th anniversary. I have wanted to go there my whole life. So I am going to use that as my motivation to do what I need to do to lose as much weight as I can before then.

Myfitnesspal and BodyMedia still haven't fixed their issues and I keep forgetting to resync them each night so that I can post my stats. I hope they're gonig to fix it soon, but according to their tech support it'll still be a while.

Love and hugs,
Dee

11/12/14

The workout was Turbo fire 60. I do all of them low impact so as to keep my back from getting worse. No jumping or anything like that.

Been working on drinking 96 ounces of water but it's tough when it's so cold!!

11/11/14

Exercise was walking at the park. Just missed my 1000 calorie deficit by 10!!

11/10/14

Here are yesterday's numbers. 

 Workout was Fire 45ez

8 hour diet

So I thought I'd post a little more info on the diet I'm doing. Go here: http://www.eighthourabsdiet.com and sign up for the free eBook. It's super short. I've been eating from 11:30a.m. to 7:30p.m. only. I haven't been been super restrictive or anything, just working on eating healthier things (more produce, less processed stuff).

So far so good! More stats Saturday!

Stat-ur-day

This week on Monday, I started something called the 8 hour diet. Basically, it's only eating within an 8 hour window. The first day I was hungry, but now it's been really easy.

I've lost 2.2 pounds (and one since yesterday! ) With a window of eating it's really hard to overeat, because there's no time. My stomach has felt better and I've had less indigestion. So win/win!!

I'll update again next week!!

Saturday, September 6

Calories burned: 2372
Eaten: 1407
Deficit: 965
Water: 64 oz ( need to work on this)
Exercise : push mowing part of the lawn and raking the back yard

A new commitment

Right now I'm sitting outside by the pool with my kids. It is so hot out today.

I've been thinking, a lot. What would take someone from an 80 pound weight loss to gaining 10 pounds, eating whatever and whenever?  Why would I work so hard, just to abandon ship and go back to my old ways? I don't know  the answer. I wish I did. I wish I understood how I could still daily log everything I eat and look at those numbers and not stop. What makes me feel so down that I push my emotions down with food? Why did I stop exercising?  

I read these old posts from last year and I think... who is this person?  Who is this motivated, motivating person ready to get things accomplished?  I don't know, but I'm gonna find her!! 

All I can do is recommit, and work hard again to stick to it. I've got you, my support team in place.

So I'll post my water consumption, calories in and out and workout here after I do it. This is how I'll stay on track.